Just came back from my granduncle's grandson one month birthday celebration. Somehow, my mum mention about my grandmother fetching my cousin from sch when he was young. And i remember once when my grandmother fetching me when i was in kindergarten. I miss my grandmother. =( She passed away 10 years ago when i was in primary 5, one day before my birthday. She speaks only hakka so maybe that why we dun really chat with each other. And i regretted. Now how i wish she was here chatting with me and sometimes help me out when i having hard time at home. When she was bedridden, she was on diapers, sometimes she will just pull out the diapers and urine everywhere in the room. That time, my sister, bro and me will refuse to go in the room cos the whole room is smell of urine. But now, how i wish that at that time i and mum will together taking care of her, so maybe i can get more time interacting with her. When i was in primary 2, i remember my form teacher was distributing cards for the grandparents' day. And i ask my teacher for one card. And i wrote to "婆婆"(grandmother in chinese) and write my name. There's no messages except for happy grandparents' day. And i draw two hands and two legs on a piece of paper and cut it out. I took out the empty toilet paper roll and paste the hands and legs and i draw a smiling mouth and eyes. Together, i gave the card and my self-make empty toilet paper roll doll to my grandmother. After that, i dunno where the card and the doll gone and i totally forgotten about it until when my grandmother passed away. After she passed away, my mum was actually clearing the room. Throwing the mattress and bed away. When they remove the mattress from the bed, i saw the toilet paper roll doll at the bed. It look still the same except that it was now flatten. I dunno why, my heart felt touch. My grandmother actually been keeping it all these years. Although it was found under the mattress, but to me, my grandmother was keeping it. Cause a normal adult will at most keep it for short while and then throw it away. But after 3 years, the useless, lousy-make toilet paper roll doll is still inside my grandmother room. Then, they start clearing my grandmother's table. And again, the card that i gave it to her is still there. I have already forgotten all about these two things but the things are still kept within my grandmother's room all those years. I actually wanted to keep the card but my mum refused to let me keep and throw it away. And the toilet roll doll too, was thrown away. But i knew that in my heart and my grandmother who is now in the heaven will know the prescene of the card and doll and will always treasure it in our hearts.
Just came back from my granduncle's grandson one month birthday celebration. Somehow, my mum mention about my grandmother fetching my cousin from sch when he was young. And i remember once when my grandmother fetching me when i was in kindergarten. I miss my grandmother. =( She passed away 10 years ago when i was in primary 5, one day before my birthday. She speaks only hakka so maybe that why we dun really chat with each other. And i regretted. Now how i wish she was here chatting with me and sometimes help me out when i having hard time at home. When she was bedridden, she was on diapers, sometimes she will just pull out the diapers and urine everywhere in the room. That time, my sister, bro and me will refuse to go in the room cos the whole room is smell of urine. But now, how i wish that at that time i and mum will together taking care of her, so maybe i can get more time interacting with her. When i was in primary 2, i remember my form teacher was distributing cards for the grandparents' day. And i ask my teacher for one card. And i wrote to "婆婆"(grandmother in chinese) and write my name. There's no messages except for happy grandparents' day. And i draw two hands and two legs on a piece of paper and cut it out. I took out the empty toilet paper roll and paste the hands and legs and i draw a smiling mouth and eyes. Together, i gave the card and my self-make empty toilet paper roll doll to my grandmother. After that, i dunno where the card and the doll gone and i totally forgotten about it until when my grandmother passed away. After she passed away, my mum was actually clearing the room. Throwing the mattress and bed away. When they remove the mattress from the bed, i saw the toilet paper roll doll at the bed. It look still the same except that it was now flatten. I dunno why, my heart felt touch. My grandmother actually been keeping it all these years. Although it was found under the mattress, but to me, my grandmother was keeping it. Cause a normal adult will at most keep it for short while and then throw it away. But after 3 years, the useless, lousy-make toilet paper roll doll is still inside my grandmother room. Then, they start clearing my grandmother's table. And again, the card that i gave it to her is still there. I have already forgotten all about these two things but the things are still kept within my grandmother's room all those years. I actually wanted to keep the card but my mum refused to let me keep and throw it away. And the toilet roll doll too, was thrown away. But i knew that in my heart and my grandmother who is now in the heaven will know the prescene of the card and doll and will always treasure it in our hearts.
Missing her
