I dunno how to describe my feeling right now. Angry? Sad? Insulted? I really dunno. Actually, i wanted to think positively about the incident. But i can't. Reason? Because i can't find anything to convince myself. I being accused, scolded and shouted by that person for nothing. Really nothing, i did nothing wrong. Ok.. this is what actually happen. After doing the in-out catherisation, i was cleaning the trolley. And, inside the kidney dish, there is a small amount of urine. And as you know, there's a so called "machine" to clean the bed pan or the urinal. And inside the machine, there is this big hole to pour the urine or feces in. And if the machine is in used, and if inside the bed pan or urinal is urine, we have to pour out the urine in the so called "funnel"-like basin and flush it like flushing the toilet bowl like that. Then, so i wanted to pour the urine inside the kidney dish to the "funnel" and i found out that i dunno why a few fan cover is on it. You can't expect me to pour the urine to the fan cover right. So, i saw the "machine" is not washing anything, and so i pour the urine there. And there is HCA, just came in, and start shouting, "You dun put the kidney dish inside there!", very loudly. And she keep on saying and scolding me very loudly, with the door open. She dun even give me some face, dignity. I mean, i'm a human being too, i too will feel embarrass. And somemore the door is open and everyone outside is looking in. But, the fact is that i never even think of putting the kidney dish inside the machine. So, i just keep quiet. I dun wish to quarrel with her. And after that, i try to keep that incident off my mind. I try to convince myself that there is nothing to be angry or sad about. Most importantly must be forgiving. But, the fact that i hate people who accused me, and scold me for nothing and doesn't even apologies, and let me lose my dignity because of her. And just now, for dunno what reason, when i reached home, i cried immediately and long and complained to my mother at the same time. That why i decided to meet kaiyih to give her birthday present cause now my eyes is very swollen atter the crying. Really, i feel very sad. I been scolded for nothing. And that hca, she dun even find out what i was actually doing and start scolding me. This show how uneducated she is. Educated person will not just scold people without finding out the real reason behind. Educated person dun anyhow accused people. And educated person care about other people feelings before scolding. And educated person will not scold so loudly. And educated person will not scold people in front of other people. My face is now all gone. =( My dignity is gone. And, if i really did wrong, i will accept it positively. I mean, it's my fault you see. But.... for this incident, i did nothing wrong! And i hate to be scolded for nothing. Anyway, i really wanted to tell her that she have NO rights to scold me, cause she just a HCA, HEALTH CARE ATTENDENT NOT staff nurse or sister. >( Okay... i know i bad to say the above lines. =x But... i feeling very sad right now. My good mood all gone because of her.
I dunno how to describe my feeling right now. Angry? Sad? Insulted? I really dunno. Actually, i wanted to think positively about the incident. But i can't. Reason? Because i can't find anything to convince myself. I being accused, scolded and shouted by that person for nothing. Really nothing, i did nothing wrong. Ok.. this is what actually happen. After doing the in-out catherisation, i was cleaning the trolley. And, inside the kidney dish, there is a small amount of urine. And as you know, there's a so called "machine" to clean the bed pan or the urinal. And inside the machine, there is this big hole to pour the urine or feces in. And if the machine is in used, and if inside the bed pan or urinal is urine, we have to pour out the urine in the so called "funnel"-like basin and flush it like flushing the toilet bowl like that. Then, so i wanted to pour the urine inside the kidney dish to the "funnel" and i found out that i dunno why a few fan cover is on it. You can't expect me to pour the urine to the fan cover right. So, i saw the "machine" is not washing anything, and so i pour the urine there. And there is HCA, just came in, and start shouting, "You dun put the kidney dish inside there!", very loudly. And she keep on saying and scolding me very loudly, with the door open. She dun even give me some face, dignity. I mean, i'm a human being too, i too will feel embarrass. And somemore the door is open and everyone outside is looking in. But, the fact is that i never even think of putting the kidney dish inside the machine. So, i just keep quiet. I dun wish to quarrel with her. And after that, i try to keep that incident off my mind. I try to convince myself that there is nothing to be angry or sad about. Most importantly must be forgiving. But, the fact that i hate people who accused me, and scold me for nothing and doesn't even apologies, and let me lose my dignity because of her. And just now, for dunno what reason, when i reached home, i cried immediately and long and complained to my mother at the same time. That why i decided to meet kaiyih to give her birthday present cause now my eyes is very swollen atter the crying. Really, i feel very sad. I been scolded for nothing. And that hca, she dun even find out what i was actually doing and start scolding me. This show how uneducated she is. Educated person will not just scold people without finding out the real reason behind. Educated person dun anyhow accused people. And educated person care about other people feelings before scolding. And educated person will not scold so loudly. And educated person will not scold people in front of other people. My face is now all gone. =( My dignity is gone. And, if i really did wrong, i will accept it positively. I mean, it's my fault you see. But.... for this incident, i did nothing wrong! And i hate to be scolded for nothing. Anyway, i really wanted to tell her that she have NO rights to scold me, cause she just a HCA, HEALTH CARE ATTENDENT NOT staff nurse or sister. >( Okay... i know i bad to say the above lines. =x But... i feeling very sad right now. My good mood all gone because of her.
